5.21.12-For I am yours....

In a world where injustice and inequities are the cause of so much suffering, misery, and death, the church cannot be silent. The church, as Christ’s body, must place itself clearly on the side of the poor and the oppressed”

 - Statement on World Mission Philosophy and Program, 1981 Annual Conference  

Again I am faced with God screaming at me that my calling is to be immersed in healthcare, poverty, and the underserved.  Reminded again by the fact that a class I need for my master's program is called Foundations of Nursing in the Community.  It really is quite remarkable how this field of work keeps finding me, no matter where I am or what I am doing.  I prayed for God to break my heart for what breaks His---and boy is he doing that.  My class this morning consisted of me in my PJ's, eating my yogurt and drinking my juice on my patio thorough a session called Elluminate with my professor and classmates, which was awesome, but It reminded me that I have a lot to learn.

 What this session so blatantly reminded me of was my mission and calling to work with God's children that are so misled and unfortunate, according to pop culture standards.  I have been asking God for Him to bless me with specific things, none of which he has given me.  Silly me for being so dang selfish.  What I see now is that God is blessing me in thousands of other ways, just not necessarily the ways I planned.  He screams- "But Heather, be reminded that my plan will ALWAYS trump yours, always.  When I pray for love, does He not give me an opportunity to show love?  Does He not give me the opportunity to experience true love, not this crap we see on TV.   He gives me the opportunity to show a child God's love through my own faith and relationship.  When I pray to hold someone's hand, does He not give me the opportunity to hold someone's hand suffering from HIV or Aids, by helping them stand up?  When I pray for companionship, does He not send someone to me that seeks to find safety from an abusive relationship, even if this person is impossible to befriend?  Mold me and shape me, for I am yours.